journey of the reconcilers

Merging Portals © 2021 F. K. Ontario

In late ’80s I was making experimental films and videos. One such fictional video was done by a group of friends from improvisational acting classes about emotional intimacy.

The take-away from this piece as the director taught me about relationships. In shooting scenes between two actors I found that when I focused on one or the other’s performance — that they acted for me and not with the other person. Instead I focused on the space between the two actors. They improvised with and for one another. The camera and I were merely observers.

After that I began to notice…

Heart to Heart and Mind to Mind

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KTHT 15-Day Writing Challenge — day 7

In September of 1990, near the base of Mt. Tamalpais in Mill Valley, California, we got a break from our church retreat. I hiked a trail up the mountain to a fire road. Along the road was a small green meadow bounded by a cluster of Redwood Trees. I was drawn to them.

I faced one tree and put my hands on the bark. In my mind, I asked: “What are you here for?”

I broke contact with the tree when I heard laughter. I assumed, incorrectly, that the gaggle of people was…

Being Peace, Love, and Joy — a poem

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Orbs of diaphanous light pass through us, you, me;
Though I would not have known this giddy feeling of rising light globes
In a stilled pool were it not for Being having formed the wider sense
Into a messenger hence to appear and walk, blessed be soil and stone
Beneath fleshy feet and all around.

I walk amongst them and blending in and out of these light beings
Humans, Angels, Animals, Trees, Streams, and all merging and blending and separating in woven trails of light in our wakes. A dance of oneness this is.
I hear a sound staccato emerge from…

Letting life’s river take me down into the lake where I drowned.

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At the moment of drowning and death, metaphorically speaking, I rose out of the lake into a strange new land. There, or instead, here is where the mountains, the valley, and the land welcomed me. Home welcomed me, and I felt embraced by Spirit.

According to AstroCartography, a branch of astrology that lays paths of the planets in the signs of your birth on a world map, this place where I feel most at home is the worst place I could live. For you astrologers — it’s Pluto in the tenth house at the midheaven. In plain English, it’s a…

Anger Revealed Truth I hadn’t Wanted

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How can I let my anger alchemize and fire me into a new version of myself? From KTHT 7 day prompt on Self-Reflection

Anger drove me to find The Truth. I believed I was searching for Universal Absolute Truth. Often, I picked my goal in my mind’s eye, and I ran towards it, bumping into furniture as if it wasn’t there. I was proud of my singular focus.
I took after my father for the longest time. He shaped me into a man filled with rage — just like he was, only later discovering he was running away from his truth…

Revealing truth through an impulsively unconscious action

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KTHT 15-Day Writing Challenge — day 5

I’ve been having problems sleeping all night due to chronic pain, morning light/birdsong, not enough exercise (due to pain) during daylight, blah, blah, blah for about a year.

I’ve tried everything, and many solutions have worked somewhat:

Going on a partially non-acidic food-style change
Coordinating my sleep cycle with sunset-sunrise times
Losing weight (80 pounds) from 11/19
Taking anti-inflammatory and natural sleep aid supplements before bed
Stopping screen time 30 minutes to an hour before bedtime, and the list goes on.

When I worked in mental health, I facilitated a Relaxation-Meditation and Sleep…

an upturned face under a mystic morning

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KTHT 15-Day Writing Challenge — a poem, day 4

Strolling soft under sycamores passed trestles of roses,
Worlds reflected on red petals of tenacious drops of dew
Clinging like newborn children to a mother with love.

Portaging between drops, entranced by tiny worlds of bending
Beams of light caressing each world, I float between them;
Transported by cosmos small and large as memories of star cast nights.

Me drifts cascading into sleep with fits of wake, dredging the sky and deep stars with my oar, once a rudder and now a pole, and then all direction gone. …

How to Open Your 3rd Eye and Increase the Power of Your Presence

The Bindi on this woman represents the 3rd Eye | Photo by Oliver Li from Pexels

KTHT 15-Day Writing Challenge day 3

Start with Chi Energy

Power for the seer comes from chi or the second chakra, brain of the physical body or moving center. Suppose your chi (energy) has ready to go through your inner work or Eastern Martial Arts, Tai Chi, Aikido, and Qigong. In that case, there may be sufficient energy to help activate your 3rd eye. However, if you’d like to kick-start your chi/2nd chakra — at your navel, a brief power-walk may be helpful:

The Power-Walk to Activate chi may be different from an ordinary power-walk. An image you might utilize while you engage in…

Does a healer really heal, or is healing something else?

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KTHT 15-Day Writing Challenge day 2

The Online Etymology Dictionary defines the verb:
heal (v.)
from Proto-Germanic *hailjan (source also of Old Saxon helian, Old Norse heila, Old Frisian hela, Dutch helen, German heilen, Gothic ga-hailjan “to heal, cure”), literally “to make whole” (from PIE *kailo- “whole;”)

[author’s emphasis on “to make whole”]

I’ve been engaged in facilitating healing work for 35 years, officially. I may have been a conduit for healing all my life by connecting to the divine and the ability to listen and accept others completely. The acts of acceptance have been a gift.

To write that…

A Soothing No-Caffeine Hot Beverage for Putting the Day to Rest

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KTHT 15-Day Writing Challenge Day 1

This is a Wind-Down hot or warm relaxing drink with a body-like coffee that helps you to relax all your senses. I find it helps soothe my mind, feelings, and body as I slide towards sleep. I muse on the day and release.

Plan on drinking your Wind-Down Beverage 2 to 3 hours before heading to pillow or experiment with the time interval.

You’ll need

Pero — contains Barley, Malted Barley, Chicory and Rye may be substituted with Cafix, or Postum (similar ingredients, smooth flavor). This is the part that makes the hot drink have body like coffee without the caffeine.


Frank Ontario

Examining “seeing” & feeling expansive perspectives in the rainbow arc of life. Seeker of truth, healer, interdimensional traveler & author.

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